I've been decorating my house today for Christmas. I'll post some photos once I get my tree in better shape. We've been fighting each other today. Tree=3. Me=0. More on that later. As the holidays roll around, I have one friend in particular who always makes it a point to remind me how "HARD" the holidays must be me. I believe its her way of trying to be supportive and a good friend so I never really put much stock in her comment. I've never actually said "Wow, the holidays are so difficult." So I'm not quite sure where she gets that from, other than some people who are in similar situations such as myself maybe don't handle the holiday season too well. With that being said, there can be some tinges of sadness, occasionally, but most of the time I focus on how blessed I am and how fortunate I am to be so well loved by my great family and friends. Sometimes I think making a list of all I'm grateful for at Thanksgiving time is so cliche. Shouldn't I make of point of being grateful ALL the time, not just some Thursday in November? Regardless, I'd like to take a minute (or a paragraph or two) to mention some of my blessings.
First on my list (and probably many others) would be my family. We are all healthy at the moment. We welcomed a new niece this year and she is a delight. We get to welcome another one just after the new year starts! All my nieces and nephews are such little adults in small bodies. I learn new things from them all the time. I'm so looking forward to having most of them around for a bit. Meg and I were laughing the other day at how abnormal our normal family is compared to the "modern" family of today. We're so lucky.
Next would be my friends. Nope, I don't have my own kids so my friends are my "in-laws." It has been a year of friendships all over the charts. I have lost some dear ones and gained some new best ones. The great thing about my friends is that they come from all walks of life and ages. It always makes me so happy to hear them say "I love coming to your house. Its so cozy and comfortable." I love when they wake me up to tell me something funny or stop by late at night because they know I'll get up to listen to them. I love that we respect each other and work through disagreements and keep trying. They are some good people and I'm very blessed.
I am grateful for my home. And for my little trooper car that keeps running. I'm grateful for a warm bed and my beenie to sleep with. I'm grateful for food and the ability to prepare it and take care of myself. I am grateful to have a job (i still can't call it a career for some reason) and have it be something I enjoy doing. And I am SO grateful for the people that have come into my life as a result of that. I'm grateful that I not only believe in a God, but that I belong to the only true and full gospel on the earth and that brings me more comfort than any soft blanket could.
Most people don't get the perspective I do of puttering around your house and being able to reflect on all your blessings in silence, without kids underfoot. I get turn on Josh Groban and remember "there's so much to be thankful for." And if that means I get to "have a hard time during the holidays," then I'm thankful for that, too. :)